Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Open Houses

Last Sunday my Darling Husband and I went out for brunch at a local pub a couple of blocks away from where we live. After countless cups of coffee we decided to walk a bit and shake off the caffeine jitters. While out we happened upon a couple of open houses, and while we're not in the market to buy at the moment we decided to check them out.

The lure of open houses is that it satisfies a certain curiosity about how your 'neighbors' live -- especially how they decorate their homes. We saw a couple of gorgeous town houses. Ironically, we came across baby rooms in both. There must be something in our neighborhood that makes people want to flee once they have babies. I have noticed lots of baby carriages but nary an older toddler. Guess they're spooked to have children grow up in an urban environment.

Back to the baby rooms and baby paraphernilia. I must admit that it really did not bother me. In the recent past it would have provoked many emotions, from sadness to envy, perhaps even feelings of being incomplete or being inadequate as a woman. Yes, sometimes I did feel inadequate. You know the feeling: why can't I have this baby room and fill it with a baby? But, honestly, last Sunday I didn't have those emotions when seeing the cradles; I just thought how cute the items were and that was it! Darling Husband and I spoke more about setting up a home office where the nursery was. It wasn't until later that I realized that I had not reacted emotionally to all the baby stuff. Maybe the longing is on its deathbed, but I am so happy it's no longer consuming me.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy V-Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to all the Barren Babes out in the world. Tonight my Darling Husband and I will be ordering pizza and putting a java-log in the fireplace. Whether you will be enjoying a four-course meal at a white-glove restaurant, or ordering take-out like us, now is the moment to remember why you are a couple. Take time to remember what attracted you to your partner and how exciting it was when you the two of you started dating.

An infertility diagnosis can sometimes spell disaster for a relationship. We try so hard to get pregnant and have sex scheduled to coincide with peak times around ovulation that we lose sight of the romance. Now is the time to toss aside the baby-making focus and look at your relationship with warmth and romance. Let's bring back that loving feeling and nurture the intimacy that has grown through the infertility struggle. Life's a journey and it's amazing to have someone to share it with, through the laughs and the tears. OMG!! Sorry, I just realized how sugary that sounds. Perhaps I'm just caught up in the spirit of the day.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Needles & Pins

Going for another acupuncture session this afternoon. Finally off the herbs and I feel good. Apparently the herbs were supposed to 'clear' everything, and last weekend I think they did indeed. Honestly, I don't know if this will help with the fertility and perhaps I should have more faith. Maybe believing in something will help. The only certain thing is that it is giving me relaxation -- a definite stress-buster. It's all about finding 'balance' and I think I may be finally getting off the 'hormonal see-saw', but the journey is just beginning. Oh, boy, I am beginning to sound like some New Age person.