Wednesday, June 23, 2010

The Dreaded Wait

Tomorrow is the day I go for bloodwork to see if our one good embryo decided to stay in my uterus and grow. Lately I've been looking out for any physical changes that might indicate that I'm pregnant.

Yesterday I was convinced that I was because I awoke to the taste of vomit in my mouth. Yes, it wasn't pleasant but I guess DH's spaghetti sauce from the night before did a number on my tummy and acid reflux made an appearance. All day I was feeling nauseated, but today I feel wonderful. I keep looking at my breasts in the mirror after I shower to see if they've changed, but nothing so far. I'm tempted to try a home pregnancy test, but since I've had a history of chemical pregnancies I don't think it would really help.

It seems like every hour I change my mind whether I might be pregnant or not. Honestly, I must confess I've been looking at baby stuff online because this might be the last time I can do this with some hope in my heart. If it is negative tomorrow I won't be able to look at baby stuff again without feeling a tinge of sadness...but no regret.


Illanare said...

I'm keeping everything crossed for you, for a lovely high beta.

IVF 40+ said...

Me too, fingers legs arms and eyes all crossed in hope!

It is what it is said...

Perhaps do an HPT in the morning before you go. While it won't determine a chemical it will determine +/- and may make the wait for beta results easier (but that's just me).


Suzanne said...

I'm hoping and praying that you get your BFP tomorrow!

AmyG said...

Rooting for you!